God Loves Loyalty

I read the verse of the day and it was talking about how Ruth was loyal to her mother-in-law even after her husband died. It was an act of pure loyalty and selflessness. I like that. I am a fiercely loyal person. Almost to the point of fault. I trust so willingly but once that trust is truly broken its very hard to get it back. I wonder if God is like that. I have met many people in my life that I grant my loyalty to without hesitation. I trust them and even when there happens to be an act of betrayal I often give another chance. I give lots of chances! People make mistakes and I don't see the point of writing them off instantly when something goes wrong in a relationship. Sometimes they don't even mean to be disloyal. You have to do a lot to turn me away from you once I have allowed you in my heart. Unfortunately I have had to kick people out of my life. It kind of goes against my nature but sometimes survival depends on it. And sometimes it is the survival of others that I have to consider like when someone hurts my family. I realized a few weeks ago that I was over the whole business fiasco. I am just tired of talking about the treachery my husband encountered and honestly the start of his new business has been better for everyone involved. He is successful and his income has soared, which ironically exposes just how much he was being cheated. However, I hold no bitterness anymore. I also hold no loyalty to them either. This is foreign to me but necessary for survival. Where did all that loyalty go? Will God be disappointed? I don't think so. I am being loyal to the man He chose for me as my husband. I am being loyal to my children who have a home and provisions because of the dissolved business agreement. I am being loyal to the employees that now work for my husband and loyal to their children that we cover on insurance. I know somewhere I am blowing it but hopefully God will forgive me and see into my heart that I truly didn't mean any harm. I don't wish them to go out of business. I no longer wish them financial problems nor do I wish anyone would lose their job. Sometimes lying in the bed you made is lesson enough. My lesson is that I have to live with the fact that I am no longer loyal to people I trusted with my life for two years. My lesson is that I gave my loyalty too quick without investigation or prayer. I will have to live with that. They will have their own lessons that do not concern me.